Being happy is a decision you make; a conscious decision. But the fact that you made a conscious decision has no bearing on whether or not it will lead to anything. I have been sad for way too long now. And dear f****** lord, how sick am I of being sad. The sad is... Continue Reading →
I did three things today. Three things, that are tugging at my lungs as if they'll pull them out through my back. I thought of my dada, talking about his dada, and I remembered thinking of how much life this one set of cataracted eyes have seen. I read a novel that reminded me that... Continue Reading →
Life has thrown me back in the ocean, and with each mouthful of salt water that burns my throat and nose like acid; the woman I spent the past year building up is chipped away, like nail polish on the fingers of an edgy teen, to reveal the lost little girl. And as guilt crawls... Continue Reading →
You are sitting in a room full of people. A room full of people who are family; blood and water. It's loud, that room, loud with the sounds of their laughter and shrieks of delight as the clowns among them do their magic. It is so loud, but it's the loud of 'Coming Back To... Continue Reading →
I have a problem said the figure It's getting a bit too hard now sobbed the reflection I need help screamed the shadow It's not worth it anymore whispered the skeleton Too bad. Don't worry! It's all in your head! They still have guillotines in some places, If, you are interested, that is.
I think everyone has at least once in their life experienced that moment where time stops or slows down. Kind of like that Matrix movie scene; the bullets moving in slow motion. Except that you also slow down. Your arms feel sluggish, the packet of chips in your hand feels like a dumbbell and it's... Continue Reading →
I am trying to put depression on paper To tell myself that I am real This is real I am not deluded My mind is not going off the rocket I am ok. And it's so hard to put into word Something Something that chokes you the minute you start And it'd be so much... Continue Reading →
Knotted stomach, Lump in my throat. choking hazard, can you please just go? No.
All fidgety, all flee-y. He didn't see me. Running away, running back around, come on.
Fawn hands dried my damp palms. Cool cheeks dried my tears. The world held you and me, many lovers to be. But, not you and me. Gold, confetti eyes, tell me lies. Make me feel alive. -continuation 3??
something at the edge of nothing 